It's baby day.

Without the baby. Justin Alexander will not be welcomed into the world today.

My heart aches.

Dreamin'

I had a dream last night. About him. I woke up and wanted it to be him in bed with me.

And I've been kinda grumpy ever since. I hear ads for the Darius Rucker concert here in July, and I want to be planning to go with him. Every Darius song makes me think of him anyway.

Maybe because the 30th was going to be a big day for me. For us. I haven't even talked to him in nearly three months, and now I'm just sad. I miss him. I miss having him in my life. I miss the way talking to him is so comfortable, and I miss the way I fit in his arms.

I'll say it, and I don't think it makes me weak. Kyle, I miss you. I don't want you back, but I wish you were here with me right now. And I'm okay with that.

April 101 update!

Goals completed:

• Recycle 10 full trash cans

So maybe I was only able to complete one, but that's okay! Because it's better than nothing, and I did made some good progress on a few others.

• donated 7,000 grains of rice
• used $34.30 in coupons (61% done!) 
• blogged about 1 new recipe (one third of the way complete!)
• tried 3 new teas (only one left!) 
• read one book (16 down so far!) 
• watched one new movie (40% down!)
• answered through question 224 of 365

My last final of the semester is in nine hours, so I am about to have a lot more time to read, to cook, to run - to do a lot of things. And to start crossing off goals like a madman. Or madwoman, as the case may be. I have six that I should be able to cross off in the next two months with no problem, if I actually work at them. I should be able to make some serious headway on my book list, too. 

We'll see! I'm excited to see the progress I make over the summer.