271. What has fear of failure stopped you from doing?
Fear of failure has stopped me from a lot, probably. I'm fairly impulsive, but I always err on the side of caution. I'm afraid of taking risks and being embarrassed by the result.
272. Who would you like to please the most?
I know that I am most important. I should care most about pleasing myself. But I think my answer here would have to be my dad. His acceptance and approval has always been important to me - perhaps because we are so incredibly alike.
273. If you could go back in time and change things, what would you change about the week that just passed?
Not a thing. I had an amazing week. I had a breakfast date with a man who makes my heart happy, and was snuggled to sleep most nights. I accepted a new tutoring client, and met with another new client for the first time. I had an amazing opportunity presented to me. I'm more than happy with the week that just passed.
274. When you meet someone for the very first time what do you want them to think about you?
Perhaps the insecure and yet still vain part of me wants them to think I am beautiful. But mostly I want them to think I am intelligent, kind, and wonderful.
275. Who would you like to forgive?
There's really only one person I've had a hard time forgiving, and I don't waste any time on her anymore. So no one, really. I have current frustrations, but I don't trouble myself with old grudges.
276. At what point during the last five years have you felt lost and alone?
I actually sent my best friend a text message a few years ago that said exactly that - "I have never felt so lonely." September, 2010.
277. What is one opportunity you believe you missed out on when you were younger?
I don't really know that I missed out on a whole lot. I was pretty blessed in that I didn't want for much when I was growing up. I had piano lessons with the best teachers around, I traveled to Europe with my competitive choir, and I received the best education available.
278. What do you want more of in your life?
Relaxation. That would require a little more money.
279. What do you want less of in your life?
Stress, for sure. And less of the job I really dislike.
280. Who depends on you?
No one, really. My coworkers, for knowledge on occasion. My bird, because she would die out of her cage. But I don't have anyone depending on me for care. I don't have kids. I live alone. While Kyle relies on me to meet many of his needs, he would be just fine on his own, too. And I kinda like it this way. I can make decisions that might affect others, but won't be life-changing for anyone else.