111. When you help someone do you ever think, “What’s in it for me?” As much as I would like to be selfless, I am not completely. So while I don't usually think that, I'm sure it's crossed my mind a few times. Even if not consciously, I know that I am gratified when I help others. I derive satisfaction and pleasure from being able to help, so on some level, I suppose I do think that.
112. What is your greatest challenge? My greatest challenge is making myself proud. I have incredibly high standards for myself and they are not always realistic.
113. How do you know when it’s time to continue holding on or time to let go? The time to let go is when you have to ask yourself that question. Letting go doesn't mean abandoning someone. It means allowing them to make that choice for themselves. Holding on is a term that implies smothering, to me, or clinging to a thread of hope. The question leads me to think of relationships, and "holding on" is a miserable way to live your love.
114. How do you define success? Success to me is being able to be proud of yourself, and have others proud of you. For me, that might be something as small as acing a test or achieving a goal. If I am proud of myself, I feel I have succeeded.
115. If someone could tell you the exact day and time you are going to die, would you want them to tell you? I have changed my mind on this question several times over the years, but today, my answer is yes. I would like to know how to budget my time. If I am going to die next year, I'm not going to waste my time now taking miserable classes that I don't enjoy, and that eat up all my time. I will spend it doing things I love with people I love. If I'm going to die when I am 80, then I'll suck it up and continue on my current path because this degree is important to me.
116. If I could grant you one wish what would you wish for? To be done with my freaking degree, and have all my student loans forgiven!
117. What have you read online recently that inspired you? I really like Seth Godin as well as Mark and Angel. I don't know that I would say I've read anything inspiring lately, though. Almost all of what I've read online recently has been educational.
118. Why do religions that advocate unity divide the human race? Religion is a very polarizing thing. Religions may advocate unity, but most also believe that their way is the only correct way. That can obviously lead to discord - especially among zealots.
119. If you could live one day of your life over again, what day would you choose? The happiest day of my life to date has been the day Kyle came home from Afghanistan. So were we together, that would be the day I chose, without question. Even though we're not, that is still the happiest memory I can recall. So I guess I would still choose that day. March 13, 2010.
120. What can money not buy? As the song goes, "Money can't buy me love." It also can't buy happiness or self-worth. It can't buy a lot of things, as a matter of fact.